End Of Year Post: How things happened.

How am I still alive?

Again...how am I still alive?

I can't explain how I lived to see the end of this semester academically, and yes, I am extremely scared that I am thinking this was much like a bad night of drinking that should result in death, but instead, results in waking up in a hospital bed learning someone let you live.

In other news... I think this year worked in my favor, socially. Fixed a few things, friendships are on better terms now, music career is taking off, and a few other things too that I can't recall. Not sure about next fall,but I will think about it. Time to play Super Smash Bros and celebrate life.

song of the moment: idk....really hard to encompass a thousand emotions into 1 track

wake up and realize it's ok....

i was disturbed to awaken this morning and feel a sense of complacency and peace regarding situations that i should be righteously afraid of. in my mind, i've told myself that if it ends here, it's meant to be. there's no lingering regrets, complaints, etc.

essentially, I've concluded my college business in secret and I'm ok with everything changing again. so yeah....

song of the moment: julie christmas - if you go away

i can't help but think.....

either i'm a coward for wanting to leave, a bastard for having the nerve to create issues to take away attention from my sister's biggest moment, a loser for letting things get this far, or just someone who has every human emotion attacking him at once.

that's it.